First Semester Finals

   Well, that wasn't so bad. I wasn't sure how I would do this first semester. It was my first whole semester back in school since high school. Now I know I could have done better than I did, but I'm actually quite happy to have only failed one class. Sure my other marks weren't as high as I probably would have liked, but I'm thinking it will be much easier now to focus on school this coming second semester now that I'm living in Moose Jaw with Carley who's working full-time.

   I managed to fail math. I've never been awesome at math, so I'm not too heartbroken over it. Obviously I would have liked to pass the class, but I'll get through it when I get the chance to take it again. The extra time to do it again, this time in the comfort of a closer home, will be good for me I think. I'll be able to take the time to go through my textbook and get math practice in. Especially since I don't have to worry about making money while I'm trying to learn school things.

   I guess I don't really have a lot to say today. Mostly I'm just really happy to be done my first whole semester. That's a milestone for me. It's been a while since I've actually accomplished something useful outside of my room or having a girlfriend. So here's hoping us moving here was the right choice. I know it will make my life in school easier, and I know Carley is really happy to finally have a job... even if it's a little hectic for her right now.

~ Kyle

Moving To A New Home

   So my Carley and I have decided to make the leap together into having a place of our own in Moose Jaw. We figured it would be nicer for me to live close to school, her to live somewhere that they're actually offering her jobs, and for us both to live together to avoid the driving back and forth from each other's houses.

   Now last time I was living here was also for school, but it was on my own. And I certainly don't remember it being so difficult and tiring. We rented a large Uhaul truck to carry all of our stuff together... and maybe that's why I remember it being easier. I'm pretty sure last time I only had enough stuff to pack up my old car, maybe a little bit more. This time, we had a whole 20 foot truck to load and unload... lots of heavy things.

   I had plans to do so much more today, but I was actually exhausted and didn't get it all done.  I had to take a nap today instead of going in to Regina for my dentist appointment. Carley is pretty tired from working full time the past few days, she's not used to it after not doing so for quite some time. So while she's sleeping, I'm working on unpacking some boxes and moving other ones to the rooms they're supposed to be in to make it easier to work through. It sure is dark in the living room without a light on... just gotta move a few more things until I get to the lamp...

~ Kyle

Understanding how to Learn.

     So I got an assignment for a class last week that was presented online as a recorded video due to my teacher not being there for that class. I found it much easier to follow along with what was going on because any time I missed something I was able to pause the video or rewind it and catch up. It makes me think about a couple things.

     First, I wonder if I would be doing a lot better if I were able to go over all my lessons as a video that I were able to pause and rewind... I'm thinking of buying a large SD card to put into my phone so I can record all my classes. I think I would then find it much easier to understand everything outside of class if I were able to go over the lesson as though it were happening again. Not to mention I think that actually might be a much easier way of keeping all my classes organized. I'd be able to upload them all onto my computer and rename them as their lesson names in the proper order. The more and more I think about this, the more I actually like the idea. I do in fact believe that is what I'm going to do next semester. Record everything using my phone. Yeah, definitely.

     Second, I think.... actually I don't remember what I was thinking of secondly. I probably just went over it because of how much I like the idea previously as I was typing it out. So I guess that's what I'm going to do next semester. So long as I'm allowed to, that's what I'm going to do. That way I'll be able to pay full attention to the lesson rather than furiously writing down notes as I go along, hoping to keep up and somehow understand what needs to be done at a later point in time.

     So now I understand what I need to do next semester to be more successful.

~ Kyle

My Awesome Girlfriend.

     As you may be able to guess by the title, I have a girlfriend. We've been through a lot together in a little over a year now, and for all the things we've been through and done together, I love her so incredibly much. She tends to have troubles thinking she's beautiful enough, or smart enough, or even good enough. I can definitely say she's all of those things and more.

     She is without a doubt the most beautiful girl I have ever had the luxury of seeing. She worried about being over- or under-weight, but I don't even care. as long as I have a place beside her in my life I couldn't care if she were 90 or 300 pounds (though I know she wouldn't let herself get like that).

     She's certainly the smartest girl I've ever met. Her brain obviously works in a different way due to a mixture of ADHD and childhood traumas. Not to mention her mother's terrible choices while pregnant with her. But even with these hurdles, she managed to graduate high school ahead of time and then get a degree right after that way faster than most other people. Yeah, I would agree that she sometimes has troubles knowing what to do in certain situations. Sometimes she doesn't know how to handle certain situations. But that doesn't mean I don't love her. We all have problems of some kind. I haven't had the difficult childhood she had, and still, I'm not sure I would argue that I have better social or relationship skills than she has. We're all smart in our own way, and I value her brains in the creative and determined ways that she is smart.

     Now, due to my past relationships, I'm a pretty picky person. If someone wasn't treating me right, or if I didn't think they were worth it, I wouldn't stay with them. So when she wonders whether or not she's good enough... She is completely absolutely without a doubt good enough. I would jump in front of a train for her. Yeah, we've had our issues, but that has only made us stronger. I know that once she gets her job(s) and we're able to move in together, everything will turn out wonderful. I know you can do whatever you put your mind to my love. And I know that everything we've been through will have been worth it in the end. You my love, are more than good enough. You're my Carley.

~ Kyle

Where School Takes Me.

     The realization begins. Such a short time left until the first work-term. I only hope I can get through my finals in one piece and make it into the next semester. I find myself getting nervous about what is coming up for me. I know I can make it through this. It’s both scary and exciting for me at the same time. Scary because I’ll be getting into something I’ve never done before. A real job with important responsibilities. Exciting because I’ll finally be getting out of the minimum wage job market.

     I find myself having difficulties focusing on much else other than my thoughts right now. I hope this is all worth it in the end. I can’t deliver food for the rest of my life. Well… I suppose I could, but I wouldn’t want to. I mean, I actually want to be able to support a family one day. That’s just not reasonable doing the kind of work I’m currently doing. So I’ll follow my path to it’s end and see what it brings me. One day when this is all over with, I’ll look back and laugh at how silly I was for worrying about everything.

~ Kyle

Streaming

Oh how I do so love streaming. It's one of the things that actually makes me enjoy playing a lot of the games I play. Because even though most of the time nobody watches, I still imagine people watching me and having a good time.

Seriously, if I could do one thing for the rest of my life, if would probably be to stream games for a living. Now of course I know that's probably impractical. That kind of thing doesn't happen to everybody now, right? But somewhere in the back of my head, I imagine myself being a popular streamer on twitch one day.

So maybe it's a stupid dream, but I still like having it. And even if I never get to that point I'll still enjoy doing it just in case I manage to make some friends one day or heck, perhaps I'll just make somebody's day. And that's all I can really ask for. Is to brighten someone's day, just a little bit.

Come check out my stream at www.twitch.tv/DaemonVirus1. ^_^

~ Kyle

Somehow flawless.

Alright, so I curl a ton on both Mondays and Fridays. I really do like my team... I mean it is my family after all, but I'm slowly realizing just how old they're getting.

My aunt is doing really well this season. Better than I've seen her do in the past. I think ever since we taught her how to throw better she's been doing great! My uncle has always had some troubles throwing consistently, but I love having him around to talk to. My dad is unfortunately beginning to have issues playing as well. Then we get to my mom, who plays really well for me. She does her best to set things up for me so I can do what needs to be done for us to score whenever possible.

And throughout this all... we somehow have a flawless record of 3 and 0. I'm not complaining. I just... don't really... know... how we managed it. But hey, that's the fun of playing with my family. I love them. <3

~ Kyle

To Sleep Or Not To Sleep

I find myself thinking more and more these days that I don't have enough time. I can find more time in the day if I don't sleep.... Unfortunately, if I go that route, I'm usually exhausted throughout the day. I suppose I could always quit my job... but it's the only thing I have to pay my bills right now unless I ask my parents for help, but I'd really rather not do that.

So I found two things that have helped me a ton so far. 5-hour energy shots, and wake me up caffeine pills. Oh wow. Now I'm not a coffee guy. I can't stand the taste of it. I don't even like the smell. But I now realize how awesome caffeine is. I feel so awake and productive! If you're finding yourself short on energy, I definitely recommend these. The energy shots are a little on the expensive side, but they do work wonders. Same with the pills, energy like you wouldn't believe. Also, you have the option of how much caffeine you feel you need if you take the pills.

I'd would definitely recommend these options to anybody looking for an energy solution.

The Welcome Wagon

And so it begins, the start of my talking to myself in front of the world. Welcome to my thought bag. Many things will be posted here about myself and things that I do or think. If you're brave enough to trek through my mind, then you're welcome to stay here as long as you like. Good luck to us all. ^_^