Keeping Up With Life Is Hard

I've kinda posted about this sort of thing before, but it's honestly quite hard to keep up with life sometimes.

There's so much I want to do and I always feel like I just don't have enough time to do it all. Yeah, a bunch of it is things like blogging and streaming which most people I know would probably think is a silly thing to want to do all the time, but for me it's a fun thing I like to do that makes me happy. There are other things I would like to do as well including reading, drawing, writing, and getting back into playing my violin.

The worrying part is when I feel so apathetic that I don't feel like doing any of these things, especially when I don't even feel like playing games which is normally a very fun thing for me to do. Lately I've found it very hard to get up enough willpower to do any of these things which is actually rather concerning to me now that I think about it. Besides being always tired, I find myself not really wanting to do anything and only really able to get up and be energetic for the purpose of working.

I have great plans for so many things I want to do and how I want to be great and energetic and happy and be so much fun, and then I find I'm fighting with myself to do anything else but sleep in my spare time. I find it very frustrating to feel like this, but at least I know I'm in a pretty good spot to deal with this sort of thing right now with my family close by me and a comfortable place to feel safe and able to handle my problems.

As always, look forward for more awesome things happening in the future. I may try to mix things up with a few longer and shorter posts just to keep things rolling every now and then even when I'm not totally feeling it.


Have a great day everybody! ^_^

~ Kyle Welykholowa

I know, I know, I need to post more things.

     I haven't been posting as much since I started working full-time I just haven't really had as much time to think about posting things lately. I have started listening to news talk radio again so I'm sure I'll soon have much more to talk about.

     In the mean time, I've been playing a ton of Baldur's Gate recently. I'm not going to do a review on it in this post because that's not the purpose of this particular post. I'd just like to mention how much fun and awesomeness I've been having lately. Baldur's Gate is a game we had back when I was younger. I'm pretty sure we had the demo of it... and then I remember my brother got it on disk. And by disk... I mean there were six disks. This was before the expansion... which I believe brought it down to three disks instead.

     I've never had the chance to get into a real group to play D&D. Also the rules these days have been updated quite a bit... so having so much experience with the 2nd edition rule-set probably doesn't help a ton. In any case, playing so much of this game and getting prepared to play the NEW expansion followed by Baldur's Gate 2 has really made me want to get into some D&D, or at least play some more boardgames with people. I've really thought about finding a group to play with. It would likely have to be online, but that wouldn't make it any less awesome. Who knows... maybe I can get Carley interested in it as well. In the mean time, once I get going again with streaming again, I'll may be streaming quite a bit of Baldur's Gate.

     I think we may be caught up with bills and things in about a month. Maybe slightly longer, but I'm not sure. I'm excited to finally be back on track. The good news is that we're at the very least staying afloat, and it's only a matter of time until we have the means to pull ourselves out of the hole of money. What a silly thing... money... If we lived in a barter system, we'd be rich thanks to all the crafts Carley likes to make. And maybe my entertainment value to other people would be valuable as well. Ah well, we'll figure it out.

     As always, have a great day everybody! Keep being awesome! ^_^

~ Kyle

Streaming

Oh how I do so love streaming. It's one of the things that actually makes me enjoy playing a lot of the games I play. Because even though most of the time nobody watches, I still imagine people watching me and having a good time.

Seriously, if I could do one thing for the rest of my life, if would probably be to stream games for a living. Now of course I know that's probably impractical. That kind of thing doesn't happen to everybody now, right? But somewhere in the back of my head, I imagine myself being a popular streamer on twitch one day.

So maybe it's a stupid dream, but I still like having it. And even if I never get to that point I'll still enjoy doing it just in case I manage to make some friends one day or heck, perhaps I'll just make somebody's day. And that's all I can really ask for. Is to brighten someone's day, just a little bit.

Come check out my stream at www.twitch.tv/DaemonVirus1. ^_^

~ Kyle