Group Camping Trip =16=

Alright, get this... I'm going on a group camping trip; yeah, I know, that's insane. There's something weird that I think you all should know about me... I like being outside and enjoying the peace and quiet of nature.

Now I know what you're all thinking... "What kind of nerd are you to like going outside?" I know something must be wrong with me, but I'm not quite sure what. I mean, how can a person like me who enjoys sitting in a dark hole writing on a blog and making videos enjoy being OUTSIDE? This has unfortunately come up before due to our trips to Lake Diefenbaker where during our most recent trip up there we camped on the beach for a night.

Now not only Carley, but also some great friends of ours are dragging me out for a camping weekend with the children. I'm a little excited to get outside and chill for a few days without having to worry about keeping the house cleaning and feeding everybody food and everything else that comes with trying to get things done around the house. At the same time I'm a little scared to be spending so much time outside and away from the house. I know I can easily keep myself busy and find things to do away from home, but I do worry about people thinking that I'm no fun or weird in the out-of-doors.

The best part about it is that I know Carley will have an awesome time. She's been wanting to go camping pretty much ever since I met her and we just haven't had the chance to go out anywhere on our own due to me usually being busy (and totally not knowing anything about camping whatsoever). There has also been a bit of an issue

I expect Isabelle will also have a great time being outside and with other people; she seems to enjoy getting out of the house and being a social baby so she may just end up being a total gem the whole time we're out there.

Wish me luck everyone! ^_^

~ Kyle Welykholowa

Yay Job Interview!

     Just had a job interview today; I think it went quite well! It's always hard to tell whether or not an interview goes well, so here's hoping that I did well enough to land the job. It would be a lovely full-time job that would pay my rent and more, putting me in a comfortable position to actually enjoy myself for a little while without worrying all the days.

     In the mean time, I'll keep applying to other opportunities just in case I didn't get the job from today, and I'll continue to focus on my ever growing Twitch stream as I have the time to do so. I've managed to get sponsorship for my stream, so I look forward to hopefully seeing an increase in viewers and I hardly even know what to say I'm SO EXCITED ABOUT IT!!!

     Some days are better than others. Life will always have ups and downs, but I know that a balance will be reached in time. As with everything else, it all takes patience. Have an awesome day everybody!

~ Kyle

A Good Week

     I haven't had much time to do anything else in the past week other than work, but I have to say it's been pretty nice actually making some money. So far, I've really enjoyed my new job; everyone I work with is really nice. Everybody is super awesome and easy to talk to. I've only had a couple customers so far who haven't seemed to be in the best of moods, but other than that, I'm really enjoying it. Even though talking to people all day is really tiring for me, I do enjoy helping people get through their day and I hope that just a simple smile and good mood might make their day.

     I don't have much to talk about at the moment. Not a lot of things have happened; which I would have to say is pretty nice at this point. I'm enjoying the quiet and the lack of events going on. Some people like having things going on all the time, but I prefer to not have much going on. I'm not really concerned about what exactly I want at the moment. I'm just enjoying the time to myself and hopefully enough time to work on the things that I want to work on.

     Here's hoping we can get some videos uploaded in the next few days! ^_^

 ~ Kyle

Feeling Alright, Searching For Work

     So I haven't posted anything for a few days. I'm here now; still hanging on. I don't have much to tell other than the fact that I'm still kicking and to be honest, I'm pretty proud of that. I've been spending a good portion of my time lately job-hunting. It's a pretty big deal that I find some sort of work pretty soon. Luckily I have enough money saved up to be able to pay for another month of rent, but hopefully I won't have to wait that long until I get a reasonable job somewhere. It would certainly be nice to actually save money.

     I've been looking at quite a few things and ideas of what to do with myself. I'm pretty sure I'm going to take some time to volunteer at the Moose Jaw Humane Society so that I can get my fix of fuzzy animals until I can finally get one of my own. I've also been looking at some school courses and may have finally found something that I would enjoy doing.

     Other than that, I'm trying to continue with my blog, maybe start up some kind of Fiverr thing... who knows, I might make a couple dollars out of something. And I'm trying to find time to get to streaming when I can.

     All in all I have to say, I'm feeling alright. I'm alive and breathing. I'm unfortunately missing curling tonight because I'm so worried about looking for a job at the moment. This hasn't been the best year for curling, but that's alright. Hopefully next Winter will be more stable than this past one was and I'll be able to keep up with curling. Not only that... perhaps I'll be able to find other people interested in curling for next year.

     Well anywhos, have a great day everybody! Please come support my Twitch stream if you get the chance! Every follow helps... or even a momentary view. ^_^

~ Kyle

Sometimes it's just a short post about my thoughts.

     I've been told that people like reading my thoughts even if it's just something simple. So much so, that I should make a post every day, even if it's on nothing of interest. Well... I'll try to have something interesting to think about as often as possible. I can't promise having something to post about every day. Nor can I promise to have something interesting to think about on those days that I do post something. But I can make an effort to write more posts.

     I've thought about this a lot actually. If only I could be paid to write about my thoughts every day. Well... in theory... I COULD... but if that did happen, it would certainly take work and time. Not that that's a bad thing. I have a fantasy of finding something to enjoy doing every day and making money at it. Being successful at something I've created myself rather than being successful at a job that someone else came up with. I thought it was just a want to be a famous streamer or something... but after giving it some thought I realize that it's not just about a silly idea of playing games for a living... if I could play games, or write about things, or make artwork for a living and get paid for it... I think I would be really happy. I think it's that old creative me wanting to come out again.

     I used to be really creative. One of my best creations was a ship made out of popsicle sticks which I'll show a picture of. I've also had a couple drawings and paintings that I was really proud of that I unfortunately never got any pictures of and have been lost to the depths of moving multiple times. So now that I've had this time to think about things to myself, I have a better understanding of myself. Every time something new and significant happens, learn something new about myself and think that I must know all there is to know about me. And yet... I keep learning more about myself with every event. I'm a creative person. I know this... I just forgot about it.

     How can you forget about being creative? I know... it seems so silly that THAT could be possible; to forget something so significant about yourself. But when I think about it... it's not just something that I'm coming up with to try to be an interesting person. I'm not just making up stories to try to cope with having a crummy month earlier. I've done creative things that I've been proud of and others have recognized me for in the past. When I was a child, I used to play games with my friends that were all in our imagination. I loved being in impov in highschool. My favourite classes were the ones where we got to make funny videos and things. And heck, I still play table top games by myself, just because I think it's fun to think about everything going on even if it's on my own.

     I guess a person forgets about these kinds of things when being in school and worrying about money makes you think that you have to fit into some kind of cookie-cutter 9-5 job. I've tried really hard to understand these things and fit in and set myself up to be a guy with a good job and everything absolutely average and normal and all that. I think what really gave me this realization was watching a stream recently. LethalFrag gave this wonderful speech which really makes sense and I took to heart. He said, "If you don't like what you're doing, you're not going to enjoy your life. So find something you like to do, and do it. If you like cleaning and want to be a janitor for the rest of your life, be a janitor!" It's so simple. I don't know exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I do know that I want it to be something creative.

     Alright... so this wasn't quite as short as I thought it was going to be. Enjoy everybody and have a great day! ^_^

~ Kyle